Song Lyrics

Any Addiction

Been seeing you around, an elusive methamphetamine

This poison that I found in a porcelain red figurine

Whoever I thought I was, this ego got the best of me

Always wonder why you never want to feel this

Such a fucking waste to lose what could become of this

You were never wrong, I did this to myself, weaker than I thought no self control

Lying in this bed, satin flames consume

Get inside my head and get me out of this room

Like any addiction, it takes more and more to pacify

A mental affliction, an illusion of need before pride

It’s time to take a stand for once in my life, overcome

Always wonder why you never want to feel this

Such a fucking waste to lose what could become of this

You were never wrong, I did this to myself, weaker than I thought no self control

Lying in this bed, satin flames consume

Get inside my head and get me out of this room

Burning flesh through love seeing no end

Don’t you dare pretend

I wish nothing but the best for you now

Post love gone wrong

I can’t tell if this is real or just lies

How hard can it be to fucking decide?

What you need and what you want aren’t the same

I’ll no longer be the one that I blame

Post love gone wrong

This is over by my hand and not yours

You wanted less when all I needed was more

One last wish to change the things that we do

Wish I’d never met you…

Feel the way you would see through my eyes and help me try to stay awake so I could fight the nightmare one last time

I don’t care if this won’t last all through the night, just because I’m alive doesn’t make this right

Hear all the words you say, see all the games you play

Taste the bitterness of fate, driving us to create

Feel the way you would see through my eyes and help me try to find

The truth behind this orchestrated end

Post love gone wrong

Shell Beach

Woke up alone, the water saturates my skin

What once was has now gone away

Who is this calling, who is this calling me back home?

I can’t trust a voice that betrayed us

But there’s someone who knows me

She seems to be a certain suggestive familiar

Tonight the hands are still again (x4)

A thousand years to learn from and still no progress

The changes occur outside of me

And I’ll never get to go back home again wherever that might have been

Nameless faces, images of what we’ll never become

Pale as death itself, they form together acting as one

All these painful secrets that we have been forced to keep

Rocking our own cradles til the sound of violence makes us…sleep…

What’s in a memory?

Countless words I’ve said to you and all the moments we have shared

Never happened, we’ve never even met before this night of hopeless starlit dreams

And I’ll never get to go back home again wherever that might have been

The hands will turn, the hands will turn, the hands will turn tonight, the hands will turn

But there’s someone who loves me, she seems to be a certain suggestive familiar

And I’ll never get to go back home again but not that I’d want to anyway

Nameless faces, images of what we’ll never become

Pale as death itself, they form together acting as one

All these painful secrets that we have been forced to keep

Rocking our own cradles til the sound of violence makes us

All they ever wanted was to try to find a way

A way to capture essence in the lives of everyone that they could never understand anyway

Sympathy is non existent in this place, the trials of a dying race, a chance to be reborn through me (x2)

No way in, one way out

No way in, one way out (x4)

See them change everything tonight

All we want is peace and the light

Seeking souls they’ve never known

We’ll make this place our own, but there’s…

No way, no way out (x2)



        Hyde And Seek

Mirror turns its back on me

Finally I can see what’s hiding behind this skin

Now the rules have changed again

It’s not always easy to embrace your closest kin

Time to take a ride with me

I don’t think I should go with you

I’ve got the keys and a conviction

Please just drive me home

Don’t you know that’s what he came here to do?

Why can’t we all come out to play?

I swear with crossed fingers it’ll be ok

Broken bones don’t hurt all that much

Innocence overruled, yeah

A liquid catalyst in me

I kind of like the feeling of civil revolution

No use getting to know me

There’s someone else who wants to try to make his presence known

Release the chains

I’ll pave the way

In exchange

End this pain

Don’t you know that’s what I came here to do?

Why can’t we all come out to play?

I swear with crossed fingers it’ll be ok

Broken bones don’t hurt all that much

Surrender yourself to all that grows inside

Struggle rages inside of me

Second guessing given to this heart of Pandora

Fuck you, I know what to do with the promise of silver lined decay…

Back to back we stand again

20 paces to see who gets to speak their mind

Fire (x4)

Sleeping Through The Apocalypse (Released 2012)

I. Fear

This is the reason death is slow and painful

The tourniquet of ignorance in high demand

What could be done with kings and queens who suffer?

Their end began long ago

We’re in this together

You and I forever

Over and over countless fall to their knees again

Giving up before attempts were even made

To get ahead of a dream not so far out of reach

There’s got to be a way to fight this

There’s not a whole lot I can say or do when it comes after you

Just try to find the vein inside before the moment dies

It’s already fucking dead

We’re in this together

You and I forever

Say it with me

Maybe tomorrow the fire will be your driving force to live

Or maybe it will burn your desire to the ground

What should be done with the weak and the wretched who can’t see the truth?

Their end began long ago

We’re in this together

You and I forever

This is the last time we will ever speak again

I don’t want to hear your lies and fictions

There’s not a whole lot I can say or do when it comes after you

Just try to find the vein inside before the moment dies

Why can’t we see what makes us listless in the face of change in decree?

It’s coming for you with a blade and the precision of an assassin with nothing to lose

You never had control of anything that mattered in your life

You never had control

We’re in this together

You and I forever

Say it with me

Are we in this together?

You and I forever?

No…

II. Panic

(Instrumental)



Slain Security

Pay close attention to the way I see you

Subtle words and gestures just might do me in

Will you be the one who understands me?

Never, you can never know me

This is my, my slain security

You chose to take the role of a superficial kind of foundation

All I wanted was a chance to live like your brightest star

I found out the hard way I was never gonna be the one who shines

In your eyes all I saw was this disgust you had for me

I’m just a piece of shit in your world

At least it’s something, at least it’s something…

So I realize that I am not your flesh

And I despise the fact that I once longed to be

You built this house, this home so strong for us all

Only to play the arsonist, reduce me to ash

The thing that brought us together will kill us in the end

Please, please just leave me so I can start to unlearn

Take a step back to see what lies underneath the plane of hallowed ground

You’ll find that the bond we shared was just merely smoke and mirrors

No more wasting time to figure out all the past inside

I will no longer belong to your sickened ways again

Holding on to nothing, so absurd

One more me and one less you

This heart, this mind, this body will be self sufficient

No more wasting time to figure out all the past

Sometimes I can’t believe all the shit that you’d say to me

I will no longer belong to your sickened ways again

I’ll no longer stand by your side in this lifetime, I’ll show you why I die again, faith in no man

Faith in no one man

To find the truth, we must uncover lies

It’s all the same, no one ever leaves here when no one is around

Its rolling over, its rolling over once again

I’m over this just so that you know but not that you care

You don’t care, you don’t care at all

You don’t care

As far as I’m concerned, you don’t exist to me

#4

Don’t ask why this story has no hero

There’s no fail safe with enemies like you and I

An atrocity of human failure sending a malicious plague into the sky

Saw no sunrise on that April morning

Just a lethal dose of broken trust, goodbye…

Don’t ask why this story has no hero

There’s no fail safe with enemies like you and I

How can they possibly forgive?

An atrocity of human failure sending a malicious plague into the sky

Now these people have to exist with consequences of others’ mistakes

Can I wave a finger at those who were there?

Can I see the light when you’ve gone way too far?

Can I be the one to say life isn’t fair?

Can I change the way that you are?

Saw no sunrise on that April morning

Just a lethal dose of broken trust, goodbye

How can they possibly relive

Blood red ashes condemned those yet to breathe

Falling further down with some too numb to cry

Children crawling under the lines so helpless, hopeless, lifeless, no words can say

All of them die in the name of God

Best of spirit lives on again despite the minds of those in control that day, they can never fail, right

No mercy

What did you say, what did you wanna say? (x2)

We want to live

This life lost

What did you say, what did you wanna say? (x2)

Still time, regret

What could you not say, what could you not say? (x2)

No voice to speak of the horror inflicted on us

Four

Four is

Four is a blind cancer

Four

Four is

Four is ruination

Stop, just think about this, a test of notorious grandeur at the cost of thousands

Mother and father gazing across the horizon, their child atop the hill, arms outstretched

Waving you home…

Thicker Than Blood

Stir your secrets and I’ll believe who you are

But underneath this shell is broken flesh, you’ll never get that far

Don’t run, stay

Together we’ll learn to just love or hate, but nothing in between

Longing to confide, its ok theres no risk at all

Hopeless ears and medicated arms will catch you before you fall

Shelter faults to capture a peace of mind

But I’ll walk through hell before I walk through your embrace

Your hands are dead to me now so…

Don’t run, stay

Together we’ll learn to just love or hate, but nothing in between

Realize your pattern

Realize your fears

Realize whats been inside all these years

Recognize your reflection

Recognize the face

Of the only one who will be there in this place

I won't let you inside this world, no

Realize no one sees like you

Realize you’re all you’ve got

Realize we are consequence

Realize we won’t stop

Don’t run, stay

Together we’ll learn to just love or hate

Realization

Crawl from the mud into the sand
live long enough to take my hand
drown in the depths of reasons why
now i could never say goodbye...

systematic process, ultimate negation
this is what controls you from the helm of slumber
falling faster in time, you will now become mine

drowning in a lukewarm slow motion
i am finally able to accept this illusion

obligation of truth, cold hypocrisy of fear
second sight of inside, blinded by a memory
jagged, pale, and hollow, this is all that i know

waiting with this godlike precision
i am finally able to accept this absolution

Ive come to find the reason why this solitude is where I'll die
breathe for now
Its fine as long as i hold on to what is real, I called my home
but Ive stayed for too long in this dream where my lips are as blue
as the ocean that is burning me, breathing no more I can finally see...

and i found a way i can lose myself
when you clear the wrong, its the right thats left
and I'll see the same from a blind man's view
because it lives in me as its killing you...

I'm done with bullshit of past horizons
cant fucking destroy my realization

can you understand the lie and would it even help to try
to know all of the things you love are just ghosts of a life above
but if  i ever knew my name, once i quit this bullshit game
I wont be the same

a swift descent into unknown, if nothing else this trip has shown
I will find my way again, I will fall...

you will learn how to..
crawl from the sand into the blood
live long enough to survive this flood
drown in the depths of a blackened sky
now Ive already said goodbye

Its not over

your empty warnings were just that
its not what you claimed it would be
i will fulfill this new prophecy
and become everything that you could not

Sleeping Through The Apocalypse

Its interesting to me the way you live your life with constant fear and frustration
over the things that are out of our control
when the tides come 'round and the acid falls to the ground
I'll have just another day to try and change my way
when mass hysteria becomes your drug of choice, theres nothing left to believe in

Its not about what you say or do, no one will make it through

come on lets praise this deity called media and blindly follow the standard
and while we're at it lets kill our fellow man, a trivial undertaking
I'll have just another day to try and change your way
take care to those unaware of devastation to come
sleep well in your personal hell and let perception become

Its not about what you say or do, no one will make it through
but who knows just what they'll have in store for your soul?
I cant see the forest for the blood on my hands
I wont be around to clean the mess that I have made

Its not about what you say or do, no one will make it through

this is the time when my nightmares turn to dreams
and the world will fall apart at the seams
like an open would fit for my fist
its something that you could not resist in your life
i wont cause strife
i wont complain
this is the end

Ive got my front row seat reserved for the end
i'll have one saved for you if you choose to come
no agitation, theres not frustration
Ive got my front row seat reserved for the end

raise your hands for glory
raise your hands to the sky
raise your hands for freedom
raise your hands to die

longing for that day, all will end this way
it brings the fire and the fifth stage of your life
let go of this foolish dream

but who knows just what they'll have in store for your soul?
you cant see the forest for the blood on your hands
Its not about what you say or do, no one will make it through

we've come a long way just to regress to a state of parasitic consumption
eradication of the good with the bad, a simple answer in motion
I'll have just another day to try and change your way
take care to those unaware of devastation to come

a hundred thousand years from one side to the next
its nothing more than a whisper

but who knows just what they'll have in store for your soul?
you cant see the forest for the blood on your hands
that keeps you from being pure of heart, you cant play the part
i wont be around to clean the mess that you've made of your life and all the ones
all the ones around you

Ive got my front row seat reserved for the end
and I'll have one saved for you if you choose to come
Ive got my front row seat reserved for the end
and I'll have one saved for you if you choose to come

its time to wave goodbye to all that you have known
a sea of lies and deception
to understand the reason for this train of thought, theres one thing you have to do first

all you've got to do is free your mind (x4)
all you've got to do is kill your fucking mind
all you've got to do is free your mind
I wont be the one to save another day(x2)
I wont be the one to save, yes, i wont be the one to save, no
i wont be the one to save you from this hell

I wont be the one to save you
i cant be the one to save you
i dont even wanna save you

this is the apocalypse



Xavier

It began with a simple question of integrity

Principles and life lessons that were taught to me

Mommy spoon-fed insults and bloody lips ensued

Daddy stood there watching, he didn’t have a clue

Then you came into my life promising to ease this strife

With pen and paper we connected, you were Xavier

The one who understands the intricacies of all these plans

And told me that if I stay true to myself I could be…saved

Ask forgiveness for all the sins that were recognized

I’ll try to stay calm

You were the only outlet for bottled aggression

I’ll try to live one more day

All the kids would point and laugh and say that my only friend

Was someone I had never met and that I pretend

To be like all of them even though I’m called a freak

I hate the way this pressure makes me feel so damn weak

The brink is looking closer and closer everyday

Pain and fear and self pity was the only way

Then you came into my life promising to ease this strife

With pen and paper we connected, you were Xavier

The one who understands the intricacies of all these plans

And told me that if I stay true to myself I could be

All that I tried to be, all that I want to be, why can’t I be saved?

Ask forgiveness for all the sins that were recognized

I’ll try to stay calm for you

But the car crash it took away everything that I was, it’s cold and dark in this coma…

It’s been three long weeks (x2)

You told me that you would be there for all time, no letters written to me in this catatonic state

Finally you came back and said that you were here, I looked at my reflection and this is what it said…

I am your life, I am Xavier, I am your death, I am Xavier

I am your pain, I am Xavier, I’ll kill your family, I am you

It’s time to move the fuck aside and let the truth take hold of you

Everything that you could never be is everything that I will make you see

I can’t take this life you lived anymore, it’s time to make them pay

You squandered every resource you had to make the world seem not so bad

Now it’s time for me to take control and I’ve got some shit to say

I’m coming, I’m coming, I’m coming to take what’s rightfully mine, I’m coming, I’m coming, I’m coming to make things right

I can’t believe the shit you’ve done and all the justice you’ve outrun

This death of flesh is what I do, it’s just a rush that you’ll get used to

You knew, you never knew this revenge

This…is…what…it’s…like…